yo i jus want to get sum stuff off my chest...my life is so hard....like i dnt feel as my home is a home....everything jus seems its goin in the wrong direction....people i thought that loved me...love only went to far...yu noe wat i mean...like i love yu but not if yu do this or that....wen yu love someone...yu'll neva stop loving them...yu kan neva stay mad at them....yu wont turn ya bakk on them....yu jus have to remember that whoes been in ya corner wen yu needed them...it hurts kus yu noe...in reality no one really cares....they kare bout there life.....it saddens me bekuz everyday i try to think wat have i done 4 everything bad to happen.....to be honest i want my old thang bakk...the only thing that made me happy wen the pain and sorrow surrounded me.....but wen she left i had no one.....but my cuzzo and bro....but now me and the cuzzo aint even good terms....like wow....wtf.....i jus wnt to be happy...sorry 4 anything i have done that might have hurt the ones i loved.......gurl yu noe i wnt yu bakk.....for a minute i thought i kuld get yu bakk..but now i dnt noe...i keep on tryin and tryin......dam dnt noe....jus need 1 more chance...i cry every night kus i feel so alone....like everyone jus say im emotional...but its truley sumthing missin in my heart.....i jus ask god why me.....like bein adopted at the age of 2......foster mom dyin in the 7th grade.......not a goood relationship at alll wit the people i live wit....bein abruised.......really not feelin loved..first true love givin upon me...but i kant let her go...hopefully i kan get her bakk....and she'll no i've change....i jus need a break...i wish i kuld say life is good...but it hasnt been.....and like im scared kus bkus of bein hurt so much and feelin alone all the time...i got alot of anger in me...and wen i take it out on people it upsets me...kus thats not me.....jus wish i kuld live in the jungle like tarzan...have no worries.....
Welll i guess ill start off like this....i ve been hurt alot of times in my life and many ppl have let me
down...knowingly and not knowingly..if yu feel wat im sayin.......I have alot goin on and been strugglin
for alot of years...Nothing was never given to me...I always had to fight for it....All my life i had to
fight and to be honest im tired of fightin for something that i deserve...Which is....HAPPINESS......I
kno i played or toiled with alot of gurlz heart....and im truley sorry....Plzz forgive me...I neva ment to
hurt none of yall...I love yall all....FOreal...All i ask iz that yu understand that i was a little boy..yes
little boy tryna bekum a MAN.....If yu kno me...yu kno my situation..yu kno i been threw hell on
earth..and yu kno therez way more to me....if yu look for it.......If yu give me time to show yu....Im
sorry for bein cocky,arrogant, all of that...but what does my confidence in my self do to yu....I really
dont see it.....Someone once told me..i have to love myself b4 otherz kan...Well thatz wat im doin....
Ive been heartbroken...but who hasnt....but wen i say......i love hard i do..And i love
memories.....even the sad ones....I love readin old messages...they bring a smile on my face.....Im
trynna get myself together ppl but i need help...I need yu to pray for me....And see that therez way
more to me...Im a very interestin person and have a very unsual way of doin thingz...and to the onez
that say they love me....i love yall to...and to the onez thatz suppose to but magically dissapear out
my life..yu missin out...ONly Leon Cozart the boy...BEKUM a MAN.......
Oh my love
Look me in my eyez
tell me that u love me
but plzz dnt tell me liez
Oh my love
Hold my hand and squeeze it tight
4 ya heart my love
I will fight
Oh my love
Well, i guezz ill start off like thiz.....If i give yu my all...I expect yu to give me yur all....ONly fair.....Im juz sayin i Love hard.....so yu love me hard......GurlZ are so quick to prejudge me....And think all typez of thingz about me b4 even gettin to kno me.... Imma kool type dude...i wear my heart on my sleeve....and ive been heart broken b4..so i dnt allow gurlz to get to close...meanin...i dnt allow myself to fall 4 anyone...So me bein single....and talkin to alot gurlz....gurlz think of me as a hoe...wen im really not....i just dnt trust nobody....so i feel as if im single.nobody will get hurt in the situation....
Well the perfect girl for me, I would have to say is the female version of me. I just want a girl that could sastify me physically,mentally, and emotionally. Somebody who kan accept me for who I am and all the issues I bring to the table..Kuz i bring alot and I need a girl that kuld stikk witt me through the good timez and bad. Simply a ryder....Yu feel me....Someone thatz not to sensative but still kan be lovey dovey at timez...lol.....Someone thatz willin to bby me....Kuz i lost my mom in the 7th grade and i look at gurlz now that remind me of my mom....
